Candid Smiles.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words,
it captures the moments, the people, everything.
We look just to see the captured moment.
Sometime it's even better than the real thing.
I like the candid shots.
I like to see the real smile, unforced and so natural.
It brings a smile to my face,
the memories flood back in my mind.
Looking at you in these pictures,
you look wonderful,
so happy.
It makes me smile when I look at them.
Takes away any bad feeling I may be having,
and replaces it with something so much better.
Even if I can't be there for the real smiles,
I can look at these,
feeling the happiness brought by your smile.

Dear Friend,

It seems as if you forget about me a little more each day. I'd say it seems that you care about me a little less each day, but I know that's not true. You still care, you're just busy, and there are other "things" in your life right now. So the only word that seems to fit is "forget", we don't talk as much as we use to or about what we use to. Part of me is afraid that you got bored with only ever hearing about my feelings, and I'm sorry if that's the case, but I thank you with all my heart for being there. I also have been trying to stop nagging you about certain "things". Without talking about my feelings or other "things", there isn't much left, and that makes me sad. We use to be able to talk for hours, about anything and everything. Something changed and I don't like it. I know these "things" distract you, and that I have no right to think that I should be your center of attention, but I was, sorta, for a little while, and that was nice, I don't get to be the center of attention often, nor do I wish to be, but it was nice. These "things" make me cringe when I think about them and how they affect you. It makes me incredibly sad. You don't realize how much it affects me, too. But I wish you the best of luck, and hope you find happiness in the paths you're choosing. I hope things between us will restore to the normalcy that I've grown to cherish. Thanks for all that you've done for me.

Sincerely yours,
Me

Infinite Directions

There are just too many thoughts and feelings running through my veins. The thoughts in my brain make my head spin. It feels as if I'm about to explode with emotions and thoughts are just going to leak out from my brain through my ears. Such a variety of emotions, too, all for different reasons. I want to get them all out. I can't though because as soon as I start thinking about one, another interjects and I loose my place and have to start over. I just can't get them organized. They're everywhere. There's one over there and another over here. This one fits in this category, and these two don't have categories at all. It makes me so confused. I feel hopelessly lost. My brain is like an intersection of an infinite number of streets going in infinite number of directions, and all have infinite number of paths connecting to each other. I'm just stuck in the middle trying to make a decision as to which way to go in this infinte place.